Postmodern Love
Sunday, June 13, 2004
What's the latest?
1. Went to sex party
2. Met with M/f couple in bdsm relationship at party
3. Spanked girl publicly at party, co-dominating her with her partner. Being exceptionally smart and interesting people, their style together was unique and sexy... It was nice to see an established Master/slave relationship between people I can actually like and respect.
4. Spent the night at k.'s house (the girl mentioned above) a few times, and enjoyed playing a little with D/s... Also just enjoyed being with a girl for the first time in awhile... girls are so snuggly and so delicious! And I was fascinated by being with someone with whom I could relate so well... the shared psychology of both being young women, and having many interests and life experiences in common, made it feel spookily like being with a twin on some level. (Note to G. My fan in Philly: Yes I did eat her pussy. She smelled so good I couldn't stop myself. I think you would have appreciated how full and swollen her pussy lips become when she's aroused. And she gets wet soooo easily!) She is a very pretty and very smart, sassy, bratty submissive. The kind that taunts you into action and makes you want to slap her around. mmmm..... Tried my strap-on with her too. That particular toy has only known men before... but it was nice to see a pretty girl riding it. I loved sleeping in her "owner's" big bed while he was out of town, watching her and I together in the mirror next to the bed, two dark haired dark eyed girls against the backdrop of luxuriously perfect white covers. I really wanted to get in her ass, of course, but her master would not allow that. Probably because he knew it was what I really wanted.
5. Had very frequent anal sex with D. Since my last post. (me being receptive) Lots of "Daddy" D/s roleplay. He knows my body so well after all this time, he knows exactly how to fuck my ass so that I can take it the way he wants me to... hard, and for long enough for him to really enjoy me before he cums. He fetishizes my ass so much, that I get little spankings every time I walk by him in the house. For most of the time since my last post, I was not allowed (by him) to masturbate outside of sexual experiences with other people, so I was constantly horny. I became so desperate that I actually felt like my pussy was burning and I felt like squirming in my chair all the time. In my mind a mantra of "use me, use me" arose. I thought of how I wanted to deny my own submissives orgasm until they begged me to be used, and would crawl to me holding a strap on in their mouth like a dog.
6. Finally revealed some of my most embarrassing fantasies to M. Much to my relief, he was not put off, but rather, wanted to try them all. I am surprised to find that both he and I want to take our sub/Domme relationship to more escalated levels. He didn't know he wanted that type of relationship at all when we started last October, now he is progressing quickly from random, D/s roleplay, into desiring more intensive slave-like training... including consistent rules and roles, and more extreme levels of humiliation and ownership. I have been using lots of orgasm denial with him. I deny him orgasm, use his cock... riding him, and if he feels like he needs to cum he has to ask me to stop, and I frequently slap his cock hard to help him not cum. Then I ride more, stop, slap him, fuck him, slap him... etc etc. One day I did it to him on a remote ocean beach and he wasn't allowed to cum at all. I let him cum the next day while I fucked his ass.
7. Had a threesome with M. and another man... my first mmF experience. I would have liked it even better if the bisexuality was more "forced bi" at my direction, (they were more than willing and very eager!) but they were great eyecandy together, both being so handsome, sexy, and sensuous. I held both their cocks in one of my hands, jerking them off together and rubbing them against each other... B. and I both sucked on M.'s cock for awhile... although at that point I thought it necessary to initiate a safe-sex talk. In the end I masturbated to orgasm with each of them sucking and licking one each of my very sensitive breasts...
8. Also met with B. (the other man besides M. from above) twice on our own for sexual exploration. The first time we drank tequila on a bridge over a creek at night in a park and after hours of sexy talk rolled around on the ground together for awhile... The second time I spent the night at his house and, wasting no time, finger-fucked his ass while jerking him off... I teased him like this for a long time, holding his gaze steadily while I made him hold perfectly still while I took him up to the edge of orgasm repeatedly, watching him become more and more desperate.
9. For the first time in a long time, I had "phone sex." This was with a man s. that I met on the net and have chatted with now and then for months. He lives in the area I am moving to and I expect to meet him when I move there in a few weeks. He is a very kinky submissive with fetishes that seemingly match mine exactly. He also seems unusually nice and interesting. s. -- if you are reading this I look forward to meeting you in person! He called me from a bar, and I made him have two gin martini's. I thoroughly interrogated him about his sexual interests and made him admit some very embarrassing things. Things I'm a little embarrassed to admit here that I like myself. Then he went back to his apt. and I made him beg me for each inch of his dildo that I allowed him to have in his ass while I spun a dirty fantasy involving all of our fetishes. I enjoyed it very much, and he was very cute on the phone.
10. Last night I strap-on fucked M. in the back of my pickup truck, where we were camping out last night by a beautiful river and nice campfire. For the first time, he was able to cum from my strap-on alone, w/ no stimulation on his cock other than some minimal friction from the sheet below him. He begged me for it the whole time, with his arms outstretched in front of him to show me that he wasn't touching himself.
11. Today, with M. on high cliffs above the ocean on one of the most beautiful days of the summer... The water below was sparkling as I have never seen it before. Truly. We ate wild strawberries and then layed down on blankets in tall grass. I enjoyed using his cock some more, holding off his orgasm by punishing his cock for him, and going through more of his "training" (about learning not to cum while being used, ever, except at my command) by alternating between riding his cock, slapping it, and sucking it excruciatingly slowly, while looking into his tortured eyes. After doing this for a long while, naked except for my cowgirl hat, I commanded him to cum and he immediately obeyed. Following this, I masturbated while he fucked my cum-filled pussy with his fingers, until I had an overwhelming orgasm. Out there on the cliffs I could be loud, and afterwards I could marvel at the ocean and the abundant wildflowers.
I feel deep gratitude for all of my good fortune.
